Giving birth is not easy. It's not for the faint of heart. Thanks a lot, Eve. It has taken me almost 6 months to share my birth story. It was traumatizing to say the least. But as time goes on, the bad parts are being a bit more hazy.
Before I forget anymore details, I wanted to share my story with whoever is interested. As I was editing my video, I realized I had left out some details of my delivery.
Watch the video before reading the rest of this blog, because then it will make more sense.
One of the important things I forgot to mention in the video, is the doubt I had during the 3 1/2 hours of pushing. I'm not sure how much time had passed before the doctor started telling me they could see his head, and that he was coming. I do know that everyone was saying that for over an hour of my pushing. After hearing it the third time, I thought they were lying, and just trying to keep me from getting discouraged.
Not only that, but when I was contracting and pushing, I looked at the doctor's face, and I felt like she was thinking I would need a C-section. While everyone around was saying that he was coming, she said nothing. In my mind I kept thinking that I can't believe I've had to go through all of this just to have a C-section.
Luckily that wasn't the case.
After a little more than three hours of pushing, though I had been silently praying the whole time for strength and to get this thing out of me, I finally said the prayer aloud. A couple pushes later I started to vomit. It wasn't until I started to throw-up that the doctor finally realized that I could have the baby naturally. She said that is when things started to look up, and the baby was in the right position to come out. Thank you, God.
You would think since I had the epidural that I would not have pain during the pushing stage. Well, that's not true at all. I felt everything that was happening. Everyone kept telling me when another contraction was coming, even though I could obviously feel them before, during, and after.
Nothing can prepare you for labor. Even greater than that, is nothing can prepare you for the immediate and overwhelming love for that little tiny baby.
As I had mentioned in the video story, for me postpartum was the part that I struggled with. Even six months after giving birth and I can still feel the aftermath in my body.
Someday I'll get around to sharing that part with you all. I think it's important for women to talk about it, because I believe most women experience something similar, but do not usually talk about it.
For now, I'll just enjoy my little man.